Monday, July 23, 2012

Chemo Brain

Not really sure what is going to happen from one moment to the next.  My thoughts and emotions hit the ups and downs at a nearly feverish pace.  My mind will start racing down a track in pursuit of a new fresh idea, then I will find myself staring at the wall wondering what I was doing.  I will be in the middle of a joyous conversation having a good time, then the tears will start for no reason.

Welcome to Chemo-Brain.  It is nice to know that the poisons that are being pumped into my body are affecting more than just the invaders trying to take over; they are slowly causing me to believe I am partly emotionally unstable and pretty much completely mad the rest of the time.

Today, I allowed doubt and negative talk to enter a text conversation and am thankful I was immediately slapped down with Truth.  I need to practice what 2 Corinthians 10:5 (KJV) teaches:
"Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;"
Keeping my mind from wandering, and focusing on things that are contrary to what God has told me to be true, I need to examine every thought so I can obey the truths I have been given and do what I know to be right.

Powerful stuff.  

Now if I can just figure out how to keep from bursting into tears...


  1. Thankfully just for a day or three after treatments.

  2. Dude, let it flow.....I know you don't wanna hear this, but many a person has changed their view after a good psp session....

    1. James, I'm not doubting you. Maybe someday I will take that route if this writing thing doesn't meet my needs for venting/catharsis.

  3. Truth. Compare everything to truth. Emotions and feelings are fickle- truth is you banner and standard. :)